I have to admit I have never been one to really make a new year's resolution. I mean seriously every day I tell myself to eat healthy, workout, don't put that candy in your mouth...and every day I go to bed and say to myself that tomorrow is a new day and I can start over. I'm not that hard on myself because I wake up the next morning and butter my toast for breakfast.
As 2017 approached I really started thinking about resolutions and what I wanted to get out of this new year. A lot has changed for me this past year. Becoming a mother has changed me in so many ways. For the better, but still. I don't live for myself anymore. I wake up each and every day hoping to be the best mom I can be. There are so many nights that I lie awake questioning if I did the right thing. If I loved on her enough. If I fed her the right amount of food. If Matilda knows that I love her. I question so much internally. Before becoming a mother I knew that I would be a good mother some day. I knew that I had such a desire and a love for children. I have spent my entire career being an advocate for children. I was so confident when I was pregnant that I would be the best mommy there was for my little one. But when I became a mother that confidence that I once had decided to hide. When you first become a mother you worry so much.
I want Matilda to have the best life she can have. I want her to know that she is loved and that she is the best thing that has ever happened to our little family. I want her to know that we are here for her no matter what. I want Matilda to know that we, her father and I, will do everything in our power to make sure that she is safe.
So, no I will not be making a resolution this year for myself. Instead I will make sure that I continue to be the best mommy to my little girl there is. I know that I am doing a great job and that I will continue to do so and that is all I can do. I will continue to love on her and make her have the best life I can.